Only a few weeks left now before getting on the big red boat and sailing back to Hobart.
I don’t know how I feel about that yet … seems a little unreal … to contemplate the relative normal of day to day again just when I’m just getting used to this new version of life.
Anyway…still time to explore and enjoy this world.
One thing that is surprising is that I can’t seem to write any more. There’s nothing bubbling up that’s neither interesting or constructive. Just a grey blandness that’s creeping in and I resort to cheap tricks to distract.
See! Sheer laziness.
Plenty of photo ops and hikes, movie nights and opportunity for getting involved – I just couldn’t really give a damn and more than a little funked up.
The 3 day hike with 2 new travel buddies was just the right amount of time and people for me…superb company and an exception to the daily rule of chit chat and polite nonsense but the daily inane and trivial conversation is just dulling and I can’t be bothered (even though I’m as guilty of it as the next person)
Still trying though…
Volunteered to fill in as a Hagg driver for Fire Team 1 for example, and spent last week looking after the hydroponics garden, and anything interesting that pops up. Didn’t make any difference.
Just not feeling it. Enthusiasm comes and goes in waves.
I know what it is and yes, I’m working on it. (You’d think 2 years and half a planet would be enough)
It’s time to move on…
So what’s next? I have absolutely no idea.
Applied for next season ( not wintering this year), put my hand up for the Comms Tech officer on the Macquarie Island resupply voyage – it sails out 3 days after we sail into Hobart – but that only staves off the inevitable for another 2 weeks or so.
Then I’m free-falling again.
Half baked plans to go here and there but nothing concrete I can plan around.
Impermanence is great and all that once you understand and embrace it but uncertainty can really fuck you up.
*it’s snowing!!!! That helps … a wander in the snow is just the ticket I think 🙂
**nup – let’s try a movie – The Dish!
***nup – let’s try bed and 30 Rock 🤘
****yup – better now