...creatively, I can only seem to function in crisis mode. When things are going along nicely, my little dark wordy well of hopelessness and despair runs dry, along with any desire to write or create or share. 'Thank Fuck! - keep your whiny bullshit to yourself', you cry. Fear not and rest assured, Dear Reader, … Continue reading Here’s the thing…
Category: Grief and Loss
…roundtripper
This will be a blomit and I'll fix it later. Read at own risk as this is a brain dump from the past 2 weeks at sea during the Macquarie Island resupply (v4) ... Well this trip is certainly a very different journey so far ... what is this 'work' thing that I'm expected to … Continue reading …roundtripper
Whodathunk
Tuesday. I'm just back at the Winston for dinner ( Beer and burger) before hitting the cinemas again to see Black Panther - the late show. They do brew a damn fine pint. ( oh and weapon of choice tonight again is the Winston burger REMIX: sheer genius for you burger connoisseurs out there. This … Continue reading Whodathunk
…landsharks
I just spent a brief half hour lunch, staring out the large second floor window here at a small black speck half a mile away - making its way slowly across the ice field. Stopping every 20 paces or so, the tiny figure would slowly turn a 360 degree circle, checking for predators or possibly … Continue reading …landsharks
…Antarctic Riviera
I’m here. After 14 days at sea, sailing though some of the most treacherous and stormy waters on the globe; Internet and Phone free, crammed into a small cabin with my 3 new best friends and challenged by living alongside 100 new coworkers; rattled and shaken and frozen and soaked, thrown about like a kite … Continue reading …Antarctic Riviera
…holding pattern
Just submitted an application for a job - a promotion that I don't want but will probably get - while waiting to hear about an unexpected job opportunity that I didn't realise I wanted so much until today. At the same time anxiously watching the timer tick down to my "end of June" deadline for action. … Continue reading …holding pattern
time machine 2…
... it seemed a hundred years had passed since I'd heard the first whale blow and every nerve ending in my body was sparkling. Soaked in adrenaline, buzzed on nicotine and cocooned in a humming halo of nervous energy, my monkey brain overloaded - 'eeeep!' - then shut down. Fight, flight or freeze. I froze: … Continue reading time machine 2…
time machine…
Few positive events in your life burn themselves into your minds eye so deeply that whenever you return to that moment, your body immediately reacts - chemically, viscerally : your heart races, your breath catches in your throat, nerves tingle -racing up and down your spine. Even the tiniest hairs on your body prickle into … Continue reading time machine…
Back to the present…
I'm travelling overseas more and more frequently now as my last real anchor to a conventional life was buried with Mum in February. All that remains now is a need to keep moving, and the notion of settling down and making do is vanishing behind me. So... this 'Travel' thing eh? I'm totally lost to … Continue reading Back to the present…
…time
My mother died today. She was a complicated woman, who found a strong quiet man that loved her completely. The best thing about today is that they are together again. We all seem to think we have enough time. We don't.
Man Down! 