I had a face, an address, and a name but nothing concrete to tie whoever the fuck this was to Simone apart from anecdotal 'maybes'. She was still denying flatly she was seeing anyone (I asked that question so many time in many different ways and, quickly losing patience with my interrogation she clammed up. … Continue reading David from work…
Category: Living with depression
broken 2…
another relationship bites the dust : this time not my failure!
broken…
So I jumped into a future that was uncertain and cloaked in lies. No 'chute or safety net to speak of apart from good friends far and away supporting me gently (but warily) as my life collapsed. Given the timely opportunity to come back home on a charter military flight (funnelling US military out of … Continue reading broken…
time machine 2…
... it seemed a hundred years had passed since I'd heard the first whale blow and every nerve ending in my body was sparkling. Soaked in adrenaline, buzzed on nicotine and cocooned in a humming halo of nervous energy, my monkey brain overloaded - 'eeeep!' - then shut down. Fight, flight or freeze. I froze: … Continue reading time machine 2…
time machine…
Few positive events in your life burn themselves into your minds eye so deeply that whenever you return to that moment, your body immediately reacts - chemically, viscerally : your heart races, your breath catches in your throat, nerves tingle -racing up and down your spine. Even the tiniest hairs on your body prickle into … Continue reading time machine…
…time
My mother died today. She was a complicated woman, who found a strong quiet man that loved her completely. The best thing about today is that they are together again. We all seem to think we have enough time. We don't.
…not in Iran.
I'm actually in Bali at the moment, and NOT Iran as the hacker trying out my account names and passwords seems to be. Remember ... Bali? 2 week Yoga Therapy Course ? Please keep up. Returning from 11 month sabbatical, my recreation leave balance was way up - so take 2 weeks? Well, if you … Continue reading …not in Iran.
re-entry…
So I'm back at work now. You can imagine my excitement. Back in Dubbo, Australia now for 10 days, spending the last 5 days locked in an office, glued to a phone and computer, staring out a distant window at the sunlight, wishing I was somewhere else. Its 'Luke Skywalker Syndrome' at its worst and … Continue reading re-entry…
homecoming…
I'm back where I started 11 months ago and the only thing that's changed is me. Leaving Chiang Mai on Monday was just another flight, just another airport and I guess didn't really even register as a "this is over" moment as far as my travels for 2016 was concerned. I'd tried not to dwell … Continue reading homecoming…
reframe…
"Whats Next?" is a big question that's been driving me forward for a while now. Sometimes you can provide the answer, but most times you cant and the universe decides on your behalf. For me, circumstances back home have aligned unexpectedly to give me a small window to return and cut short my year of … Continue reading reframe…
Man Down! 